Post by lexylee on Aug 25, 2004 0:44:08 GMT -5
Wow, I don't even know where to start. I'm am a 25 year old mother of 2 and one the why. I have always known that someting was not right with me. I never fit in as a kid in school. I aways thought that I was different, but never knew why.
I grew up in a very abusive family with drug users so of course no one would have known about my problems. I joined the Navy when I was 18 to get away from my family. Shortly after that, I met my husband on the ship I was sent to. I have never had a relationship last longer then a month. I have aways told myself that if someone could put up with me for longer then 6 months then that would be the person that I would marry. My husband is the one who help me see that I had a problem. I almost lost him after six months. So I was determinded to find out what the heck was wrong with me. Luckly with the military it was not as hard as it could have been. I marched right down to our Medical office, of course in tears and poured my heart to one of the doctors onboard. She then sent me on my way with zoloft for depression. Although I felt sooooo much better then I did before, I knew somthing was still not right. I have seen about 4 different doctors and about 10 different counselors. I was told I had so many things, but I kept saying over and over that it has to be something else. But, for me with all my abusive back ground it was hard to sort through. In our marrige my husband found out that he had OCPD and during one of his counseling sessions he talked about me. That night he brought me this test to take for Adult ADD and I just let it set on the desk for a while. Then one day I was feeling like my world was coming apart so I pick up the test. I had never even heard about Adult ADD before but yet as I was reading the Questions I remember feeling such relief. "I'm not crazy after all." I had a hard time getting my doctor to even consider the ADD. He was worried about my families past of drug abuse. He finally gave me conserta.
My life before concerta.........
I away got in trouble with the Navy. Everyone aways talked about me. I was lazy, messy, late all the time, and just couldn't get it together. My marrige was falling apart. I hated myself couldn't stand to look at myself in the mirror. Always dreaming of how I wanted my life to be. No, not rich or anything like that but just to be able to cook dinner for my family, take my kids for a walk, finish something for the first time in my life, be able to clean my house, and not take me all day just to do one task. My mind was so cluttered with soooo many simple things that needed to be done. I thought about them so much that I was too burnt out to do them.
My life after concerta.......
I could read a book from line to line without having to follow along with my finger. That was the highlight of my life. Of course I was only on it for about 2 months becouse of this pregnancy but I'm counting down the days to when I can take it again..
Thanks
I grew up in a very abusive family with drug users so of course no one would have known about my problems. I joined the Navy when I was 18 to get away from my family. Shortly after that, I met my husband on the ship I was sent to. I have never had a relationship last longer then a month. I have aways told myself that if someone could put up with me for longer then 6 months then that would be the person that I would marry. My husband is the one who help me see that I had a problem. I almost lost him after six months. So I was determinded to find out what the heck was wrong with me. Luckly with the military it was not as hard as it could have been. I marched right down to our Medical office, of course in tears and poured my heart to one of the doctors onboard. She then sent me on my way with zoloft for depression. Although I felt sooooo much better then I did before, I knew somthing was still not right. I have seen about 4 different doctors and about 10 different counselors. I was told I had so many things, but I kept saying over and over that it has to be something else. But, for me with all my abusive back ground it was hard to sort through. In our marrige my husband found out that he had OCPD and during one of his counseling sessions he talked about me. That night he brought me this test to take for Adult ADD and I just let it set on the desk for a while. Then one day I was feeling like my world was coming apart so I pick up the test. I had never even heard about Adult ADD before but yet as I was reading the Questions I remember feeling such relief. "I'm not crazy after all." I had a hard time getting my doctor to even consider the ADD. He was worried about my families past of drug abuse. He finally gave me conserta.
My life before concerta.........
I away got in trouble with the Navy. Everyone aways talked about me. I was lazy, messy, late all the time, and just couldn't get it together. My marrige was falling apart. I hated myself couldn't stand to look at myself in the mirror. Always dreaming of how I wanted my life to be. No, not rich or anything like that but just to be able to cook dinner for my family, take my kids for a walk, finish something for the first time in my life, be able to clean my house, and not take me all day just to do one task. My mind was so cluttered with soooo many simple things that needed to be done. I thought about them so much that I was too burnt out to do them.
My life after concerta.......
I could read a book from line to line without having to follow along with my finger. That was the highlight of my life. Of course I was only on it for about 2 months becouse of this pregnancy but I'm counting down the days to when I can take it again..
Thanks