Post by rickw on Jul 26, 2004 1:54:02 GMT -5
Just found this site. In desperation, i guess. I am getting tired , its late and i hope i can get some sleep tonite. I need to explain whats going on in my life but briefly i am 51 and have just had the worst winter/spring of my life. Been chainsaw carver for 3 years, carver most of my life. Last november, i became totally unable to work. i have degenerative disc disease and Arthritis hit me like a ton of bricks. Couldn't sleep for 3 1/2 months straight. Finally gave in an went to doc. In more pain than i ever could imagine and it got worse everyday. since its warmed up i dont have near the pain. manageing it pretty well for now. not carving with a chainsaw hardly at all. This is my livlyhood. So worry plays a big part now. I cant shut my mind off at nite and i am "blessed" with endurance. i might get 2 hours a nite then i'm wiped out. gotta have my coffee to get going eventually and then i'm shot by noon. Allergic to or have hyper bad reaction to tylenol pm doc reccomended. dont like even taking ibuprofen, actually drugs of any kind. But am taking pain med and ibuprofen twice a day. i have to. trying to control my mind mentally to relax and shut down/not worry or design new ideas to create at nite but am not having much success. Never heard of ADD til my ex-sister-in law told me i have it. Boy, was i ticked. She is a sweet woman and she cared about me enough to tell me. her son has it. well i did some research and realized she was right. anyway my life is going down the tubes. i cant chainsaw carve and do the hardwork it takes to make a living at it, so i am roughing out pieces and going back into high detail/realistic works. i am so tired and physically dont last more than 3-4 hours amorning and i'm done for the day. i think i could keep going if i could get 7-8 hours sleep a nite. I cannot get things straightened out sleep wize. I am tired so i may not be making alot of sense. Sorry. I hope someone has an idea or something, my frustration is reaching critical. i have to get things done to make a living. If anyone has time an some possible solutions please e-mail me. with ADD in the subject line so i dont delete an unknown e-mail. Sorry to burst in here like this but i'm in trouble. this is july 26th 2:15 am. hope someone has some input, thank you kindly. sincerely, rick woodward